I miss her.
I really do.
But I’m so afraid of her
Afraid of her insanities
Afraid to even dream of her
Afraid to hear negative things from her to affect my feelings again.
Afraid that I need to protect myself to shout against her.
I wonder how have she been….?
Is she getting from bad to worse?
Is she being loved by her son?
I’m feeling sad, sad for her as well….
My landloard’s daughter was asking me ‘Do you have parents? She continued saying “Everyone have parents, everyone have daddy & mommy”….
I have no idea how to answer her.
I also hope I have proper parents.
Someone blood related, who loves me dearly & does not degrades me.
